Bad day.

Idk how to say it, who to say it to. Im just feeling horrible and i think i'll just stfu for today. But the anger and hatred bottling up in me is increasing more and more each minute. I feel like crying just now. This is so fucking unfair. All i want and need, is someone to tell me that its okay and i need a big tight long hug. I wanna go back to where i was, where i can hide from the ugly world and feel safe. I need security. 

There's that one person that you'll always turn to when things crash hard on you. That one person that will make a difference in your life. That only one that can save you from all the pain and give you all the assurance that you need that things will be fine. But i can't do that anymore. Im falling apart. I don't deserve this. But i need to stand alone, i've to shake it off my mind and fucking stay strong. Feel so fucking broken.

You already knew that you've been fighting a battle that you'll always be losing.

But, you still continued to fight. & then one day, you finally decided to accept the fact,

that you've been fighting for nothing. & that you're always at the losing end.